Just got home from the psychiatrist. I was so upset in the office that he gave me a 1mg clonazepam to take then and there.

He is putting me back on the same doses of trileptal and abilify that I was taking before, and left the wellbutrin and buspar where I had them. He also wants me to take a total of 2mg of clonazepam per day - 0.5 in the morning, 0.5 in the afternoon, and 1 at night.

He encouraged me to take the next few days off from work until I start to stabilize, but I told him I really can't... and it's true - I can't. Then he suggested that perhaps a "short" hospital stay would be best. I declined, but he left it available as an option if wanted/needed and strongly encouraged me to take it easy, because things could get worse if I push myself too hard.

Since I don't want to go to the hospital, it seems his plan is to keep me drugged up on the clonazepam until the other meds kick in again. Fair enough, I suppose. I see his point with the hospital - a safe, [relatively] calm environment where all that is expected of me is that I get better - I admit, the idea has its appeals, but it would royally mess up my schooling. Again. No thanks.

Well, the clonazepam he gave me at the office is kicking in. I feel calmer, but sleepy. I think a nap is in order...