she said she can no longer work with me because she feels she has exhausted all her expertise and resources

Ok first the legal aspect - I don't know where you live but that would be called patient abandonment where I am in Boston, MA. That was cruel, mean and unprofessional of her to say that. You are not a hopeless case, I don't know where you live but there are people that can help you and she has an legal obligation to help you find someone.

Can you ask her for some referalls, are there trauma centers where you live? I know that I am in the process of trying to find a new therapist and it's hard but please trust the people here, there are therapists and all she did regardless of how much you respected her was show an unprofessional side. There are so many different therapies and maybe you were not diagnosed properly and therefore not getting your therapy needs met.

Have you considered an inpatient hospital or an outpatient partial. They do exist all over at least US.

she was the top psychiatrist here with national awards etc

As was said before - who cares that she has national awards. The therapist that I was working with was the only person that ever got close to me and understood and she didn't want any awards. It's not about their awards, it's about how they interact with you. Sometimes those awards can be a hinderance b/c you think they are so great and you feel like the failure.

You are a patient and deserve the very best treatment and deserve a therapist that will help you get there. My psychiatrist is world renown for the work he does and for a long time I was intimidated by him but the truth is that he is there to help me - awards really do mean nothing.

now I am completely HOPELESS

I feel like that on a daily basis. You are not completely hopeless you just have not found the right therapist and/or meds. This is HARD STUFF and it took you a lifetime to get to the place you are at - give yourself time. You went to the yoga class. That is awesome. There have been times when I have gone to the gym and had to take it minute by minute and constantly be in the present moment.

But you are not HOPELESS. I know you may feel like your situation is bleak but I think everyone here has felt that way and just pushed through it.

my life just gets worse each day