had my session today, T right off the bat told me we weren't doing trauma work today. FINE BY ME.

then at the end of the session (which she cut short to 50 mins instead of our usual 75, I assume because we didn't do trauma work) she said that starting next week we are going to do things differently. That the way we've been doing this work seems to her to be "long and dragged out and may be retraumatizing" me. She said it's as if we have "frankenstein boots on" ( ) and are just slogging through it, causing more pain.

So I'm supposed to make note of what triggers me this week and we will start working on which skills to use to manager the triggers.

I don't even know how I feel about this. Certainly the way we have been doing trauma work has taken a toll on me, and obviously (from my other threads here) I have concerns about the issue of retraumatization.

Still, I was so close to finishing telling her the story. Does this mean I won't get the chance to finish?

I can feel that I'm sort of triggered just by her making that change, by her announcing it to me in such a way rather than asking me what I thought about it, and by her cutting the session short. So I'm trying not to react from that triggered place.

some of my thoughts: what if I don't know what triggers me? Does this change mean that I did something wrong somehow? She has seemed so solidly sure all along that we were walking down the path toward healing. Was she wrong? Was I?

what I feel right now is just a lot of confusion and fear.

I could really use some of your collective wisdom and differing points of view, PC. Lay it on me.