thank you, jexa. Anything you share with me is welcome.

I'm not sure why the sudden turn-around, other than: last week at my session I told her that I didn't want to come, that I didn't want to do trauma work. I told her that I need to feel in charge and that it's starting to feel like another violation, being forced to talk in there.

I guess she's been thinking about that over the course of the week? I don't know. I'm thinking about emailing or calling her to ask a couple questions, once I work out what those questions are. I'm hoping that I can figure that out through talking about it here.

I just felt really disconnected during the session, from the beginning and all along. I keep telling myself that T was having an "off" day and that it doesn't have to have anything to do with me. That not everything is always about ME.