I am new to this forum. I do not know where to begin. At my age I feel embarrased to tell my story. Since it is a long story, I will make it very short. I am a fairly intelligent self motivated woman who have always struggle to have the better things in life. I am hard working and very dedicated to my family and business. But, I seem to have a weakness when it comes this relationship.

I have been in a relationship for 25 years with the same man. The man I have been with has never made a commitment. We have never lived together. We have a child together, who is now an adult. The relationship was built on lies and deceit from day one. This man has been unfaithful to me since the relationship started. He has had several relationships (in hiding) while being with me. Is like he lives a double life. I dated someone over ten years ago for a very short period of time. That did not work. I do not date at all. I have been faithful to this man for most of my entire adult life. I just don't know what is wrong with me. Every time I make up my mind to leave him for good it always fails. We make up after several months of not seen each other. Sometimes he makes promises and sometimes he does not. But I keep falling into the same trap all over again. Somewhere deep inside of me, I feel that he is the right man for me and that we will live the rest of our lives together. But also something tells me deep inside that I am fooling myself. All of my friends and family sees him for what he is. I have tried numerous times to end this, including not seen him for months at a time. I have seen a therapist to no avail. Right now we are not speaking to each other and this will probably continue for several months. The next time he comes around I would like to be strong enough and be prepared to finally say "no more". He always come back with a sad story and I am always there for him. I know, I am stupid.