Feary.... but you do have one person who will not give up on you.... YOU.
Sometimes in life we have to be THE ONLY ONE who will stand up for ourselves.
I've been to that place and it is not good. It is very hard. But it is the very bottom of the bottom when you are where you are. It is only at this depth of aloneness that a person finds that when the world is silent, they remain.

YOU can be THE ONE who is there when you need someone there.