(((((((((((zoo)))))))))

Two things:

First, I know you know this, but I told my story in fits and starts over YEARS. It would have been WAY too much for me to tell it at once, and like skeski's T, my T watches to make sure I'm safe and helps me know when it's time to stop for a while. And then the story rolls back around (like now, ugh) and we move back into it a little bit, and then out again. I think it was the only way I could do it. There was this big push at the very end of the CSA story where I told a lot at once, but for the most part, it's been slow, and as safe as possible given the circumstances.

I know that you are afraid of your therapy ending. That was a fear of mine too. I thought at first that he would kick me out after 30 sessions (when my insurance ran out) and then once that time passed and I asked him about it, he said he generally tells people a year (he didn't know ANY of my story at this point). Once I started leaking out bits and pieces of the story, I was so scared I would be referred. Finally, we talked about it enough (over and over and over and over again) that I came to really believe that I can go as long as I need to. At one point, he was trained in a new form of couples therapy and he LOVED it and I was scared he would only do couples after that, but he promised even if he did all couples, he would still see me (actually, he said I'm dissociative enough to qualify as a couple ) I so get the fear of therapy ending before we're ready.

SO. It feels like this is a REALLY important conversation for you to have with her. You need to KNOW...is this going to end soon? IS there a time limit? Was the two years a hard a fast rule or a guess? Please bring it up. The worst thing you'll find out is that yes, there's a time limit...and since you already think there is, then nothing will really change. But maybe you will find out that there ISN'T a time limit, and you'll be able to relax and heal at a pace that is right and safe for you.