Hey Sweet,
congrats on the 140 days. That's a big accomplishment. I went 2 years without drinking, with 2 or 3 slip-ups. As of today, I am back drinking, but I have learned how to handle myself. I don't drink as much, like, until the pain goes away, until I feel numb. I know that no matter how much I drink, it's not going to make me feel any happier. So, I just hang out with my husband and down a few, and don't get too crazy. I can manage myself.
Don't be so hard on yourself.You just had a little slip up. You can really overcome this if you really want to. Try talking to someone about your feelings instead of turning to the bottle. I wish you well.