Hello LilMissSmiley

That is really a perplexing situation of yours. I feel sad about it.

Seek our almighty God's guidance and He will guide you to the lighter path.
I agree with Rhiannonsmoon, i believe, you need to let it go. Let go of the sad past and the pain it brought you. Look at the brighter side and make yourself busy. Be productive and have fun. You deserve it.

Good luck on that girl!

Alluring Lady