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Originally Posted by Kotomi
I don't even know if I put this in the right section... Sorry if it's in the worng section, anyways.
Aah, so, back to the title.
My personality is constantly changing and I'm not sure what to do with it. For example, I'll be typing up a post with em ranting about something -- but then I'll just stop once I finish it and then hold down the backspace button and then call myself stupid for ranting. I'll be very depressed one moment and then it will just go away.
At times, I'll just have a short temper and will snap at anybody. Usually scaring them off.. Then after that I'll feel lonely because I scared people off and nobody really would like to talk to me when I'm angry -- for no reason. =\
It's really confusing me now. I don't know what to think of emotions anymore. I can be totally blunt at times but then later I'll look back and get upset with myself for being so un-sympathetic.. I can't tell if what I'm feeling is real.
I don't know.  |
There probably could be a variety of reasons. For myself, I felt like this alot when I first started trying to get in touch with my emotions. I grew up in a house where nothing was acceptable. Something could make me happy but then I would be told it shouldn't have so I would try to feel whatever my mom thought I should. Once I got older, I did not know what the appropriate reaction/emotion should be so I would berate myself for feeling one way and make myself feel a whole gambit of emotions. I am learning it is ok to feel whatever but that I also can check with friends if I think I might be taking something the wrong way or over-reacting. Hope this helps...at least know I am listening to you and how you feel is important.