((((((((((((jexa))))))))))))))

Can you focus on an hour at a time? When I am trying to stop a big coping mechanism that isn't good for me, sometimes a day seems SO LONG. But if I break it down "I just have to get to lunch", "I just have to get to 3", whatever, it helps a little, and I get to have these little successes along the way that help me keep going.

When I started T, I was using all kinds of bad coping stuff - ED, SI, pills - and as I worked through stuff and didn't need to use them anymore, T's level of caring never changed. I learned to tell him with my words how much it hurt, and I learned to ask for what I needed. You are so articulate, jexa...you have the words you need to tell T how much it hurts. When you are both focused on your SI, she won't have the chance to help you with the REAL hurt that you're feeling about her leaving. Give yourself the chance to work on that with her.

Please stay safe, sweet jexa.