Hi Rainbow and everyone else who has been following this issues in the "Prayer's for brain scan needed". That one is offically closed so I will continue in here since we already started talking about it here.

I saw T last night. I wanted so much to bring up these issues of ending therapy, when, how, tapering sessions, and overall how this will work and if I am really ready. I just couldn't. He is gone the rest of this week.

I already feel some abandonment feelings since he is out of town this week. I know that is crazy and I shouldn't feel that way. I guess abandonment is a very strong feeling I have right now.

I know I need to bring this up with T next monday. I felt like I didn't want to talk about anything else in there except my feelings of ending. Buy am I really ready??? I am not very sure myself. Then again maybe even going every two weeks would help me see that I can get through things, that is if I even make it 2 weeks. I am very unsure and scared right now.

I'm trying really hard to keep all the abandonment feelings contained. I know my T will be back, but it can be hard.