I don't even know where to begin with all this, it just seems like my life is just falling apart and I cant do anything about it, everyday gets harder and harder and Im beginning to wonder if its all really worth it. Im no stranger to the difficulties of life and Ive always tried to do my best to deal with these things but no matter what I do nothing gets any better, I just feel all broken inside, I destroy my friendships and relationships, and push away those that get close to me. Its tearing my life apart. a few years ago I was just a normal guy without any real worries or problems, now Im 32 year old who is rapidly losing control of his life. I spend all of my time depressed, and dont know how to cope anymore.