So many hugs needed!!! PRN
Hmmm, Denise. For me, the non-intense thing is good, as it so often manifests as big time irritablity with ragey flipouts that have been very embarrasing to say the least. Won't lie, I do miss the euphoric ones, but since they seems to come as a packaged set... I feel non-human when I'm depressed. Like an alien that has been sent to exile upon this planet. What little relate-ability I have with "normals" at the best of times goes right out the window. So... yeah, relative "normality" took some getting used to, but it's nice not to feel so scary/out of of control... not really sure how to describe it.
I'm feeling pretty good today. The only really down thing when like this is a persistant feeling of loneliness and isolation, but it is situational, as opposed to mood-related. (BF is fabulously sweet, but his job is so physically draining that he sleeps a lot. I don't know anyone here and barely work. Good at amusing myself, but this level takes quite an effort. TG for the forum, I so appreciate you all!