I hope you are saying you never deserved the treatment you got - cos thats true - children deserve to be loved the right way - to be protected and cared for and if that doesnt happen - especiallly formthose that should be protecting them - thenit is NOT the childs fault - NEVER EVER the childs fault

you are strong because you are here - you fell down and SI'd but that happens - you went two weeks without doing that and that is marvellous - celebrate your success

With the goal setting - perhaps you are setting your goals too high - one of mine was to stop SI NOW! lol that didnt happen and i beat myself up constantly about it and told myself how bad i was for slipping - but the truth is we are all human and we al slip and fall - but as long as you get up again and start again - there is no shame in that -

its a long journey and not an easy one and often we ask too much too soon of ourselves - please try not to hurt yourself - you are deserving of better times and happiness

stay safe

P7