I don't like touch and generally only hug my kids. Sometimes I hug my best friend when I haven't seen her for a long time, but usually not (just to give you an idea of how I am with touch, even with people I really care about). So, no, I have never hugged my T. I know if she wanted to hug me it would have really freaked me out earlier in therapy.

Lately, though, I've thought about hugging her and how it would feel to get a hug from her after those long, intense trauma sessions. I've had times when I thought it would be so comforting and healing, but other times when I think it would be as awkward as all touch usually is for me.

I might ask her about it someday. Probably not, honestly. I've gone almost 2 years in therapy with her without touching at all, that's probably not going to change now.

eta: I think, for me, there is a sexual component in it that makes it even more difficult. I hesitated to post about this part of it, but I hope I'm right in thinking other people here will have that issue, too. I think part of my fear of asking for a hug is that I'm afraid my T will see it as sexual in some way, that I'm coming onto her or something. Talk about AWKWARD.