Michelle, your first therapist sounds like a real winner. Wouldn't want to see that guy--ever. What a quack. I'm sure there are tons of people out there who have been misdaignosed with bp who just want attention. I have had a suicide scare in the past, though. My first year at college and I picked out a spot, the time of day, everything. But, I was too chicken to go through with it. I thank God for that now...I know he was on my side that day. I know this may not mean that much to you, but I don't think you should go off your meds now, at least not without a dr's approval, esp with what has happened to you in the past. These things also f-ing tick me off too . My whole family is like that, save my brother (who is my bff). "You probably just need a little time off, that's all. A week or two and you'll be back to normal", whatever that is. They just don't understand. Maybe you should monitor your behavior, or journal it, like I do. I have days when I think, "God, this isn't working!!! Meds aren't working and I'm getting worse. I HATE this!!!!!" But, I write that down. The next day, I may be fine. Anyway, my point is that if you monitor your everyday behavior, maybe you'll see a change, and if you don't, then you'll know. Good luck with everything!

A word: If you think you've hit rock bottom, just remember that you can only go up from there.