granite, I wish your T wasn't so hung up about your talking and not emailing. If you can't talk, at least you can write! Like me, though I do better with talking now. You've got all this stuff that you can write, and by writing, you get it out. What can possibly be wrong with doing that? When you're ready to talk, you will. At least now, or whenever you email, your T will have some idea of what's going on with you.