(((((((((((( All )))))))))))))) You all are just SOOOOOOO awesome!!! I will put the details in my "fictionalized" story. But I thought of each of you there with me for support. It literally felt like I was surrounded by each of you and being rooted on to do what I had to do and to be honest with my T.

This is part of the after session email I just sent him:

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T,

You officially know me now better than ANY other human EVER has known me.
You made me feel safe in session. I felt respected. I felt validated. I felt human.
And the hug at the end was one of the best gifts ever.... because you demonstrated as fact that no matter what I say to you (and how 'dirty' I feel about myself for those things) that I am still viewed in the same way by you - as a fellow survivor and a nice safe regular human. Honestly... that was one of my B I G fears of seeing you today.
My fear was after you heard my reality (( and I knew I was going to have to be totally honest with you - no matter how hard it was for me)) that you would not offer me your hug because subconsciously you would either be afraid of me or think I was after you or that I was contaminated.... hummm.... I know, more of my "stuff" I am trying so hard to work through.

I honestly just wanted to thank you very much for making this one session nothing as painful as I thought it would be. You may not have any idea just how deeply this is coming from for me.

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So thank you all again!