i've reached my breaking point.

josh is in Iraq, daughter has gestational diabetes ,(and used meth, until she found out she was pregnant) the father of the baby has skipped and she's facing eviction from her house. her daughter, who is 6, has been through so much in her short life and i'm worried sick about her.

i can't get out of my head and the class is so hard that i'm going to withdraw..i'm a "A" grade person and i know that sooner or later, i'm going to have to go to Austin and try to keep things going there.that means i'll have to miss at least one class. and this is a 12 week course crammed into four weeks. missing if i can't make at least a B, then i can't be satisfied. also, it will be on the transcript that i have to show future employers. i'd rather withdraw and take the class again...when things aren't so stressful.

i have the job, which physically is killing me. i'm not used to standing up that many hours. but that will pass, i just need time to get used to it. the job really helps me to stay out of my head but at night i am obsessed with all that is going on. my sleep is fitful or not at all. i didn't sleep any friday night..went back to bed at 8 a.m. and slept til 1. that is the most sleep that i've had in several nights.

i've reached the breaking point and thank God, i'm able to realize it now...i talked to Dale for two hours this morning and he agrees about the class. he knows ALL about my stuff that is going on. so, i felt so much better hearing him help me work through withdrawing from the class. i hate giving up on things.