Hi blueoctober and rookie54 Thanx I've been making a few posts here and there and I respond to peoples posts in the other forums but I've avoided posting in this one when this is an issue for me. I've even been avoiding reading posts in here. I'm not sure why exactly. Perhaps then I have to face my issues. I don't know. Seems easier to hide that I'm not normal(I guess I feel a bit like you do rookie)