I appreciate your post, amanda. I can definitely see where it could look like I am just not being happy with whatever my T says. I think the problem, or part of it, started when I told her I didn't want to do trauma work. I didn't mean that I don't want to do it ever, I meant I didn't want to do it that day. I'm not sure if she understood that when we were talking, and certainly I wasn't clear about it when I was talking about it here.

Beyond that, I don't know. There are deeper things at play here. I have a fear that she is changing the way we do trauma work to focus more on triggers because she wants to teach me how to handle them before she fires me. It comes back to a basic insecurity and fear of abandonment. I wonder if she's moving away (she mentioned selling her house a few weeks ago) or if she's going to refer me to someone else or...all kinds of things. She's tired of me. She doesn't believe me. she doesn't believe me.