I am placing this here because it is part of my trauma yet it could probably go other places as well. Tonight I was watching a movie and a guy shot himself. My mind immediately went back to when my uncle did the same? My uncle was like a dad to me as I grew up without one. Does the pain ever diminish? Do the questions of why ever diminish? Do the questions of what could I have done or why did I not see it ever diminish? Do the hot tears ever diminish?