Hi Treehouse,
About your first post, I think the whole thing with the messages is really interesting. I think it is really cool that your T picked up on the fact that all of them put together made a 'story' and that he took the time to delete the messages in between and listen to them all together. That speaks so much louder than anything he could say about how much he cares and how amazed he is with you. But also, did he offer to let you listen to the 'story'? Would you have wanted to? Many times when I leave a message for my T I forget what I said or it becomes kind of a jumbled mess in my head. I wonder if you would find it interesting to hear the progression of the story, and kind of look at it from an outsiders view.

About your second post, I had a lot of thoughts about ways you could look at T's absence and ways to deal with it to make it better. And then I realized - you have done this so many times before, you really know all of this!. You have pretty much explored every single angle of the situation and I think, at this point, all that needs to be said is that - it SUCKS. You know that and you also know that it won't last for ever. And even though it doesn't come close to giving you what you need from T, I'll give you some hugs anyway......