((((((((zh))))))))) what kind, supportive words. i thank you for them.

you brought about a good point...charge ahead gently. what i see is ALOT. i'm safely not feeling though, as the realization of what i now know is settling, i think. it makes me feel robotic. it's an unpleasant feeling to know something so incredibly sad, then to feel nothing.

thank you so much for the encouragement. i am blessed with a wonderful t who i really have learned to trust completely.

be safe, friend.

kd