It sounds like you need to find a less stressful job if possible. Sorry to sound so bossy. I thought my job was stressful. Not compared to yours. And you are struggling trying to keep stable. I think you're just on Lamictal and just starting out. Plus your personal hassles. Now maybe you could find another job there, too. That's what we do where I work. Oh, Sug, you just go from one thing to another. My heart is with you. I hope you can figure it out. Hugs, Owl.