I'm with you! I feel like you do. Yesterday therapy was so HARD, and not satisfying like last time. I "get" the explosion feeling, and feeling cornered. My T said "don't fight it"--the feelings, but I've never "felt the feelings" in a session and been asked right there. It's what I crave and hate at the same time.

Can you do deep breathing at the beginning of the session? T and I do that and it helps me to relax.

I hope it goes well for you today!