(((((((( Silent ))))))))

"IT" was not your fault. Your uncle was in his own pain and he would have done this even if you were living there at that moment. He had made his decision, and though he knew it would hurt others he was in so much pain that he couldn't go on any more

The pain gets less, but "what if's" don't go away because "what if's" are unsolvable and that is for everyone. The gnawing pain of those left behind is something we have to live with and I think that is human emotion.

If a god made humans he sure as hell screwed up badly, but if we are evolution then it is understandable because we are not perfect but heading towards it.

My dad basically committed suicide because he refused my kidney, now I'm crying... He refused outright and I was the only match and I feel so guilty that I didn't continue to insist. But the dr said that he had refused and he couldn't go against his wishes. He would still be alive if only he had taken that kidney.

The only thing that eases my pain is knowing that he wasn't stuck with my bitter , complaining mean mouthed mum whose cats bum mouth would split if she tried to smile.

Please don't blame yourself, there is nothing you could have done and his death was related to absolutely nothing you did,

((((safe hugs))))