THAT is a really good question. What pops into my head is the fact that he knows me better than anyone ever has, and it feels good to be able to go and just be however I am and still be accepted and cared for. And I guess there's the fact that he doesn't want anything from me - I do a lot of "caretaking" - of my boys, my H, my friends, my alcoholic mom - and this is quite literally the first time someone has taken care of ME. It feels like finally getting a drink of water after spending years and years and years in the desert.

It feels like there's more. I think I'll ponder this today. Thanks, Ocean