I love round/even numbers (the 5's and 10's of age, especially :-) so becoming 60 is kind of neat for me. I really loved becoming 50 in 2000/the Millennium. I pay attention to my live in 10-year increments so, "How was 2000-2010?" is a question I have been asking myself this last half of the year.

I'm having trouble with the "what to do next" question; I find being older is harder than other challenges I've faced in my life; the not tip-top physical aspect (constant aches and pains, tiredness, etc.) and the lack of obvious "next steps" as have always come before, coupled with the known/constant diminishing of senses, etc. have me scrambling, but not necessarily in a productive way, but more in circles

I have friends who are older who can't see; my hearing is not great and not getting better over time, I remember my stepmother's refrigerator full of food with green stuff growing on it that she couldn't "see" (though her sight was good) and wonder how much longer my husband (older than I am) will be able to drive, etc. I have the urge to rush and help other elderly, while I'm able with the "magical" thinking that that will merit me help when I am less able and I see my 86 year old neighbor, still driving, still living on her own and mowing her lawn, etc. My hamster-on-a-treadmill thoughts pause when I see/think of her and my 88 year old aunt, right this minute I'm okay and who knows what the future may hold? Pay attention to now, Perna, you can pay attention to the "future" when it gets here.