as has been said - IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT - or - the price you paid for your education - who's to say if you had been there he would stil be alive - no-one can - i say the same about my mum - she was sick and died and i said if only id been there.... what ? id have made her a new heart?????

we cant change whats happened - much as we want to - sighs - the only thing that can help us is to accept what happened and process it and try to let it go - that doesnt mean accept it was right - it means accept it happened and the situation was as it was and we cant change the past.... process and reason out - with a T or a friend - or maybe here if no T is available to you - what happened and accept that somtimes peoples view are warped by their own perceptions and we cant change that..... process all the emotions that go wiht it ...a T cab really help here..... and then the hardest part...let it go...let the emotions come up and leave - that doesnt mean forget - there are some things we cant forget - but we can change our focus.

Remember how you helped your mum, remember the good times you had wiht your uncle - does the pain ever go away ..... i think it gets less ....I think it comes back at times ..but that at thsoe times we have to try to refocus on what is good in our lives and what was good in theirs...

I dont know if any of this makes sense...
but i wish you well

P7