Estee I also don't think this is necessarily a bad thing.

I used to never be lonely, although I was alone a lot. In fact I was always proud of the fact that although I wasn't a hermit... I always loved to go out and experience thing with friends... I also wasn't so reliant on that that I couldn't have a good time being by myself... going to the movies by myself, going out to dinner by myself, even going to amusement parks by myself.

With the depression I am now finding my self lonely long with my aloneness. It is a very hard feeling.

I can't speak to your situation though... I say trust your instincts if you feel that there is something bad about this... BUT (and jeez, here is the tricky part) if you DO feel there is something wrong, you have to also make sure it isn't your depression making you hurt and see things negatively when that doesn't reflect reality.

If you are just worrying out of wondering about it and noticing a change, I say there is no need to think that it is abnormal and might actually be a good thing, if you can think so about it. I also think that "not being lonely" does not equal "not wanting a relationship" because a relationship sought just to fill a void may not be a healthy one, I believe it is best when the people in a relationship "add" to one another's enjoyment of life but don't rely on one another in order to be happy (although support during rough times is something different and also required).

Did any of that make sense or am I just blathering more than I usually do today???

In any case I hope you can find some comfort in all of our support.