Thank you Ygrec23. I appreciate your words and support.

She admits that she's "made a mess of things", her words, not mine...although I'm not arguing! Yes, I'm angry, but I haven't stopped loving her. We'll get through this somehow. I just don't know what it's going to look like.

We don't drink anymore, can't afford to. That's both financially and other ways too. I'm an alcoholic, clean and sober 17 years now. It would be all too easy to crawl inside a pretty bottle and never come out again. I refuse to do that.

I don't know what we're going to do, I'm trying to gather what I can to get the taxes filed electronically as fast as I can and hopefully buy some time.