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Aug 18, 2010, 05:37 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2010
Location: MN, USA
Posts: 58
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Well, I just got an email from my new job telling me that they have decided that they don't want me to come back to work for them next week! No reason why, just that they don't want me to come back. You know, I can't help it that I have tonsillitis & a sinus infection & fluid in my ears & that the doctor ordered me to bed rest for the remainder of the week! What the if**key, they couldn't even call me & tell me? They had to send a freaking email to tell me not to come back? Have people no guts anymore? Have people no kindness? No understanding? What has made the world such a cold place?
So I sent an email back asking why. I doubt they'll respond or they'll give some inane reason, not the truth. I think that at least some of the people there could sense my depression & my fear...but how much of it was due to being a lot sicker than I realized I was? Crap, yesterday my boss told me just to come in next week & everything would be fine! Now one of the owners emails me & tell me nope, we don't want you! What a bunch of crap.
You'd think they could wait, give me a chance to show them what I could do when I was feeling better, but no! Oh no, we can't do that! Making money is more important than anything else in this world I guess!
Plus I sent my foster dog off to her forever home. I was feeling bad enough due to that & being sick, then I check my email & get this.
I want to just cry right now but my 14 year old step-daughter is in the other room & she doesn't know about any of this. I'm really alone, can't tell anyone in the house. My husband isn't home from his job yet. Once again, I'm a failure. Once again, my actions result in me letting everyone down. I really don't think I can take much more of this crap.
You try & try & nothing good comes out of it. Why? I ask you, why? I blew it, I blew this job by getting sick. Once again my physical health kicks me in the ****ing teeth. Now what? I don't have any unemployment benefits left! I'm barely able to function through a day right now without wanting to just walk out of my life, someway, somehow.
I am so full of hurt & pain right now.
Kim 
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