Hard day today in the partial hospital. Our regular therapist was gone, and the guy who was filling in for her was pretty awful. He had never met me before, but made lots of assumptions about me and said some pretty unkind things. (Apparantly I'm "completely out of touch with my emotions," "wearing a mask", I "like being stuck" in different areas of my life and "don't really want to change", and he said that he was "going to call me on my bullsh*t")

I'm an introvert and process things slowly, so I was feeling hurt and annoyed during the group session, but it didn't really sink in until later how hurt I was. I ended up crying for 2 hours straight, came home and went to bed for a while, and then got up and am crying again. I'm feeling really vulnerable these days... I came into the group with an open and trusting attitude, and now I feel hurt, judged, and misunderstood. Our regular therapist will be back tomorrow, so maybe I can process this a little then. I'm also thinking of writing up a complaint, and finding a way to put into words what made this therapist's actions so unhelpful. I'd be open to any thoughts people have about this... and could use a virtual "hug" right now.

garden gal