I was actually given a diagnosis 3 years ago but was in a custody battle very stressed at that time now I am feeling just as anxious and crazy and unsure of myself and my damn head won't let me have any peace. I go from sad and depressed to this headachy feeling and my mind won't sop and my mouth won't stop. I am constantly embarrassing myself because I can't seem to shut up! I am having alot of trouble at work and I am convinced they are going to fire me any day now. I am driving my husband who is depressed ,crazy, he can't deal with my hyped up talking all the time. I called my medical Dr last week and asked for Xanax and picked up my script tonight and saw that he has prescribed me depakote. I had discussed the previous psych doc dx of bipolar with him a couple of months ago but told him I thought I was just stressed and didn't want meds yet ...so I guess he has seen me enough all wired up that he is convinced. I am hoping that by description here other people with bipolar disorder could tell me what they think. I am a nurse and there is so much stigma about this diagnosis that I am having a really hard time accepting this! If anyone can convince me that I am bipolar I think it will be others who share the disorder! I am desperate for relief from this whatever it is! I have kinda always been this way and sometimes I like being this way, it is still better than my depressions where I lie on my couch and hope I don't wake up! I am 38 female with 2 teenaged children, single mom, remarried.Any insight into what is going with me would be greatly appreciated!
I have so many questions!