IDK if it is the same, but last year I had worked through some of my touch issues and in doing so I encountered an incredible healer (a massage therapist/bodyworker) who taught a class I took. For whatever reason my inner child seem to just pop right up inside my head and was just magically drawn to this woman's energy and her voice. I talked about this woman with my T and eventually overcame my resistance and scheduled a few private sessions with her. The first session was nice but mainly I was too anxious to get very deep. BUT the second session...was a totally different story. Although I didn't talk much during this session I had an incredible and totally unexpected experience during the session with her. Basically my inner child, whom I typically envision as a child of 3-4 that surfaces and either hides or sit next to me, surfaced and was held for what seemed like a REALLY long time. In actuality it was probably 30 second to a minute at most, but the experience totally unexpected and just blew me away. The healer knew something significant happened but I didn't really tell her what I experienced until a week later because...well my rational mind kind of flipped out about what happened. I am so grateful that I was able to share what happened first with my T and then later with the healer.

This experience was really intense and it temporarily created a lot of mental noise and all kinds of fears like...I want this healer to hold me all the time now, its weird to be a grown woman imagining being held like that...etc. But NONE of my fears happened. In fact the adult me jump right in to capitalize on this experience by sending the child back to this place of being held when she got really scared by memories. It was just an incredible, one time healing experience that seemed to meet that need and hasn't left me craving to be held again. My adult has learned to replicate it on my own.