Here I go doing what I always swear I will never do. Start a thread. But maybe this one will go well.

When I got on disabiity I also was put in medicare. My wonderful good great theapist was not covered by medicare because she is a LCSW. She knew that disability was giving me almost nothing per month. and then was reducing it with medicare part A and then D. Leaving me with not enough for anyone to live on. She told me not to worry though. She knows I need her. And she would not drop me. She would fight for me. Either she would write a grant. Or she would barter or trade with me. She kept saying dont worry. I went back there today only to hear her say that she will charge me 72.00 per session which is what medicaid allows her to charge people. I had been barely hanging on by a thread. She knew that. I couldnt just sit there after she said that. So I asked her if the state insurance company ( which I have coverage with until the end of the month) will cover the apt if I leave now (5 minutes into the session) . She said yes. So I told her that I cannot stay. I have to go. I left. I felt so violated that she said one thing which was so compassionate and real. And then the next week she was a greedy typical therapist. Telling someone who she knew was in financial and emotional crisis that she would charge so much that there would be nothing left of the disability money. ( she knew how much I was getting from disability, minus whats being taken out for medicare) What a cruel thing. Its my murphys law with therapists. But I figured that after 20 years I would try again and maybe the murphys law would have changed and it would be safe to bond with a therapist. Boy was I wrong. Hope I can leave this up here wihtout having it removed. Not very good at saying what I really feel and leaving it up.