Thanks Googly,(((((((( hugs for your wonderful self ))))))) I am not in the market for a therapist. It was just one last try. I gave up 20 years ago. But I was supposed to do some important integration work. Next lifetime will be soon enough. this was one last try entering the lions den, so to speak. I really thought it was amazing that she was so great. Didnt fit my therapist murphys law karma. Guess my karma came shining through after all.

((((((((Sanityseeker))))))))))) Yes, boy do I hear ya !!! I like what you wrote here "For me I turn to my spiritual elders and traditional teachers to fill the void. Trust is easier for me since they are like my grandmothers and grandfathers and bring to the table knowledge and understanding that touches my very spirit. They are there for me until death do us part. I feel blessed to know I can always call upon their help and be heard." I turned to spiritual healing 20 years ago. I would love to hear more about the spiritual elders. I would LOVE some good spiritual grandmothers and grandfathers. I took a 2 year clairvoyant training course ( much more was involved in it than that ) And without my even realizing it until about 9 months into the probram after 2 years we would be ordained licensed ministers. Although there is no religion is associated with it. Anyway, a couple years after I finished that program, I ran out of money and could not do any formal spiritual study anymore. Plus I was supposed to to the integration work. I am not DID so the "integration" word is not scary and horrible for the purpose I am using it. Huge blessings to you both !!!

I hope you get really good sleep with your lovely seroquil. I want some xanax to just sleep sleep sleep. and then sleep some more. All I have is some klonapin. and some other stuff that doesnt get me to sleep.