Thanks everyone.
Just to answer some questions:
Owl - yes, i am just starting out on Lamictin and currently on 75 mg, on my way to 100mg. I postponed a p-doc app as I was just too busy at work, but I think it's imperative I do move it back closer - so I'm going next week Tues. My health needs to come first.
My face has decided it is a breeding ground for zits again - at my age of nearly 25!
My sinuses are killing me and gone right into my cheek bones giving me the sensation of tooth ache.
Busy popping Klonopin to mellow myself out a bit and take the edge off.
Had the car accident 1.5 weeks ago, which is a write off, so I'm sorting out all the paper work any organising a new car.
Most of the time my boyfriend is "sweet" and understanding, but every now and again he can get selfish and ignores me.

I'm beginning to realise I have a huge fear of abandonment and rejection and I have NO clue where that stems from. But it's terrible!

My sleep is getting full of dreams again, of people that were once in my life and meant a hell of a lot to me, but who can no longer be a part of my life, so it upsets me. I wake up with anxiety before coming to work, and am continuously sleepy.

Thought about it, and decided that neither of my managers are appropriate people to discuss my diagnosis with. My buyer is very understanding and in a way I feel I could disclose to her, but as much as she is willing to assist me in my workload, she just cannot, as she doesn't have the training nor access to systems.
Today I am feeling emotional - I guess that's kind of a sign of the depression creaping back in, and almost feel like I could bust into tears. My friend at work that I have confided in has been off sick yesterday and today, and she is someone I can really talk to.
Sorry about the vent, I just don't have anyone to talk to..