BF update: I made up my mind, no more love and intimacy.

It's simpler and safer for me, and so what if that's selfish, it's the only armor I do have...

I don't see the point in having such a huge oxymoron in my life. i.e LOVE/TRIGGER I'm better off without thank you very much.

And in hindsight, if he was everything I thought he was, he would've known the difference between me and BP me, so I'm not crying over his exit anymore.

I commend those of you who can have meaningful relationships whilst in the midst of your very own bipolar cloud, I on the other hand cannot. End of story

So Suga, that's the way the cookie crumbles, even though I was crushed, I can't say I'm at all surprised, who knows, maybe I subconsciously sabotaged it from the start? IDK, what I do know, is: It's time to put the past in the behind and get on with it eh