something happened, and I just spun out. All the way out. It's 4am and I've just been laying here for hours thinking about my T and what she said and what I said, going back to the beginning of therapy and around and around and around. UGH.

It is really horrible to be caught in that whirlpool of thought and emotion and SEE yourself there but not be able to break free.

I'm going to call my T but I have to wait several hours until it's late enough to call her.