Lauru: You are definitely NOT a loser, if you are then so am I. My xtdoc says we have more obstacles to overcome than most and should be proud of ANY accomplishment even if it's as small as just waking up the next day. Have you tried to apply for SSDI yet? I am sorry your still so depressed and wish I had advice for you but I know that for me all I can do is wait for it to change on it's own....

Lonegael: Glad to hear you are doing much better, sorry you lack motivation but perhaps today is a day for you to take it easy?

Me: Well I overselpt today, my dad is going for a CAT and Brain MRI this morning and I had intended to go with, missed that boat. hope all goes well but I wont know for a few hours so I am a ball of anxiety waiting on him to get back. Also I have not taken my Depakote in a couple of days, is anyone familiar with this drug? I have a few oddities I'd like to ask about if so....

I actually SPOKE to my x tdoc yesterday for the first time since the end of June and our last session. SSDI was having trouble sending her paper work to fill out so I took it upon myself to call her n find out what was up. She said she had already filled out and returned the paper work and would call SSDI to make sure they got it. She asked how I was and I gave her a brief rundown of the last month or so then she said she had to go. I was a nervous wreck by the time I got off the phone and had to take an ativan... Now to call SSDI again today =P