rainbow, I can TOTALLY relate to being incredibly embarrassed in therapy. It definitely hinders my progress at times. I think it is so hard to believe that a T really doesn't judge us and really is safe and it's really okay to be vulnerable. No matter how many times I tell myself that my feelings and reactions are not judged in therapy, I still don't trust that.

However, I have to say that I think you're doing really well with this stuff, rainbow, and your willingness to be vulnerable in therapy is beyond what I could do, for sure. What are you rushing toward, rainbow? What makes it so hard to trust this process, to let your feelings come up as they are, including embarrassment and resistance to the process?