My regular T got back yesterday. I had a call into him last week when he was gone so he set up an appointment for me first thing yesterday morning. I am still so very confused about everything and I'm having a really hard time figuring out what feelings/emotions/thoughts of mine that I can trust. I don't know and now it seems like everything is depending on how much I can trust my own self. I have always thought that I could trust my own feelings and emotions. Now that is all crashing down and I don't even know who I am.

Thank you everyone for your input.