You know, when there's a swirl of emotions, it's hard to sort out, so take it easy on yourself. Did you have the appointment yesterday or just set it up? How did it go (only if you want to say of course!)? With so much going on, it's a lot (too much, yeah?) to cover, but starting is progress and that is a good thing, even if it doesn't feel like it right off the bat, so good for you!