bummer, I know you feel sad! No new ones, still 40?
I hope your friend gave you a hug so you could cry together.
The alcohol lets the emotions come out, turns off the self-control. I keep thinking that some alcohol would really help my pain, or some W33D, yeah W33D would be awesome... sigh, not really. It's just going to make it all accessible and then leave me feeling rotten the next day.

Today your physical healing begins again. Not sure when you have therapy, soon I hope so you can spill some of these feelings out in session where it is safe. Take the care of your T while you still have her