I am like you with the meds.....there were absolutely NONE that my body would tolerate especially when I have to be functional at the same time as taking them.

Your T says that she won't see you unless you have a Pdoc......interesting enough, I had a pdoc that dropped me & I needed to find a new pdoc also......I ended up finding one finally on one of my hospitalizations. When you are hospitalized, you are assigned a pdoc...just a fact of being inpatient......so hopefully from that assignment you will be able to have that assigned pdoc take you on as a permanent patient & then you will have a pdoc & your T will continue to treat you also.

Not being able to take meds, I was lucky in the pdoc that was assigned to me was also into med research & alternative treatments. He tried everything from light therapy to the final find for my depression (Omega 3 EPA). He also helped me get through the trauma with stronger meds that were able to knock me out so that the nightmares would stop bothering me so I could sleep, but now that I am living alone, there is no way I can take that med & function......so now back to the natural Omega 3 (when I can afford it).

I know you are going through a lot of demands on you at the moment with your kids & school......can you make any arrangements after they get settled in school to take 3 days to go to the hospital.....at least to give it a try to find a solution & to satisfy your T & hopefully find a pdoc......

Of course, like echoes suggested, maybe you would be better off with another T, one who doesn't require you to go to a pdoc. My psychologist now doesn't require me to go to a pdoc because of all the med issues I have not been able to take....no point in paying for a pdoc to prescribe meds I can't take. She has suggested it initially, but hasn't pushed or required it for her treatment of me. I have never known a T to require a patient to go to a pdoc as a stipulation for their treatment.....in some ways it does sound like you might be better off finding a new T in the first place. I know that our community mental health providers in the state I live in are outstanding & they provide everything right at that facility (pdoc, group therapy.....etc). Maybe you could find something similar in your area? that you would be much better off with & not have to worry about going inpatient to satisfy your T.