(((((((granite))))))))

My suggestion is to just give her the list!! I wish I could go and shake your T and tell her to use what you write. What you write but can't say is still YOU. It's expressing yourself. Why can't she accept that from you? Maybe there's something I'm missing here. Maybe I'm too close to the issue of not talking but being able to write to see it clearly.

I'm sorry you are having all of this stress in your life. One of those things alone would be enough to put me into a depression, and you have to deal with all of them. It's my opinion that your T is so focused on one thing--getting you to talk--that she is not helping you with your pain.

I agree that the goal is to help you to talk, but right now you need support for the stuff you're going through! When kids who have selective mutism go to school but don't talk, the teachers don't wait until they graduate to teach them just because they don't talk.

I wonder what other Ts would do in this situation. My T lets me email and responds to what I can't say in the session. What if I couldn't or wouldn't talk at all? I have a feeling she would let me write it, and then she would respond to what I wrote, in the session. But you don't like her doing that either? Is that the problem? Are you willing to give her the list and letting her talk about it? That's what therapy is for.