rain and zoo thanks so much. i'm going to make the list and am going to bring it with me and see whats going to happen.today i'm thinking of this list and thinking i would give it a try and talk to her about it. i feel all brave like i can do this but i get thare and i want to get sick the more i think about using words.you both are dealing with and telling your T's some terifying things.what happens when you walk through that door that allows you to be able to do this.you must be able to do something to stop the sick panic feeling that allows you to talk.what kind of things go on that make you so brave or be able to get past this and tell T anything.i have fanticies about going in her offie and just screaming and being totally out of controle like i use to be but i know this isnt an option.i worry that this could easily happen if i started feeling all these feelings to strongly.posting here helps